I think I'm a freak

So this 30 hrs. of dancing a week is starting to get to me and is making me a little crazy. i would love to just saw off my left foot and grow a new one that doesn't hurt every hour of the day. Every morning I get to stumble around cuz the whole ankle just gives out on me and the nice open wounds and bruised knees, thighs, elbows and hips are just getting to be a pain in my ass...litterally. And as i had some time to myself today due to many many student illnesses I had too much time to think and here are some random thoughts that came to me today.

First off, I think I must be really weird in general and I just naturally reject normal human behavior. I went into Bed Bath and Beyond to look at stuff for my new apartment and hated everything. Since when did the world lose color and all creativity? boring boring stupid, cliche ugh. I guess I'll have to get most of my stuff at Urban outfitters or "Joe's R Us" as we like to call it. AND CLOTHES! I don't ever wear real clothes. I was looking at parents at the Co-op and I just wondered what it would be like to wear clothes and do my hair everyday. That would be so weird, like even underwear, what is that like? My hair goes from wet to the pillow to a bun and I go from pj pants and a tee to tights and leos and legwarmers with cut up pants and layers of my weird bright crap. All i do is stretch, sweat, yell, jump around and take pain killers to pass out at night. Did I mention I name everything i own, is that weird? my laptop is Alice (cuz she knows everything), my surfboard is Bella (and i talk to her while driving and yell at her in the waves) and my GPS has a hot aussie accent named Edward. (figured it out yet) my Sebring is Princess Sophia (haha) and the girls are Roxy and Velma :) I got my hello Kitty I sleep with a new flannel and black cord skirt cuz she didn't like her old outfit anymore. I also hate white cars HATE them, they freak me out. I check my emails like 500 times a day and I shower in the dark now. It's way better. I'm always doing choreagraphy in my head like modern peices with straight jackets and masks, box fans and circus music. I made up a tap routine in Starbucks last week actually. And then sometimes I remember I'm a mom and try to do normal mom things but i don't know how. You should have seen us registering at Preschool (we stood out a little) Ezra is going to be one unique little person. He gets attention everywhere he goes cuz he just has such a weird/funny personality. Girls already chase him sometimes 3 at a time. and I'm on my bathroom floor in the dark with a beer and a towel on my head as I'm typeing this. But i don't know you be the judge, have i lost my mind?